Saturday, July 25, 2009

Examining My Heart & the Hearts of Our Children…

I became a Christian when I was 8 years old. As a young “innocent”, but sinful child, I asked Jesus Christ into my heart. I asked Him to save me. I loved Him. I believed He loved me. I wanted to go to Heaven with my family. I didn’t want to be left behind when they went. I understood, I think, that I could not be good on my own, that I needed Jesus in my heart to be good. Did I at that point fully grasp my own depravity? No. Did I at that point really get my desperate need of a Savior? No. But did I truly love Jesus? Did I truly believe Him to be the Son of God? Did I completely believe that He was the only way to the Father? Yes, with all my heart! So did I experience at that time true regeneration? I believe I did. Did I always ever after follow Jesus, heed His leading every time? Sadly, no, but if I had waited until I was an adult, would I have understood more fully and followed more faithfully? Would my heart have been as tender, as easily open to His loving call? Perhaps not. I am so thankful for salvation early in my life. As I look at my children’s lives, do I have reason for concern when I hear the overwhelming statistics that tell us that teens and twenties are leaving the church – their faith even – when they leave their parents’ home? What fruit do I see in their lives? Do I see a tender love for Jesus? Do I see them mimicking me or Him? Are we discipling them so that their faith is truly their own when they leave us? Are they strong? Will they be able to stand and give an account of their faith? Will they be willing? Will they be faithful to the end? Do they have the belief and the courage for the future they will face? This is our responsibility, mine and Tommy’s, not our local church’s. I am so thankful, though, for families God has placed in our path, who walk through these challenging years with us - who are like-minded, who love our children, who love us. Lord, make my heart tender to Your leading, tune my ears to hear Your voice. Walk behind me always telling me, “this is the way, walk you in it.”

Friday, July 24, 2009

something's percolating in me...

after hearing voddie baucham speak at the home school conference, i think i've been trying to avoid a recurring thought. it's a little uncomfortable for me to consider... but here it is: what does He require of me and my life as a part of a church body? is grace so "free" or as bonhoeffer says,"cheap", that nothing much is required of me? NO! is bonhoeffer's answer. he says that,"when Christ calls (me), He bids (me) come and die...the call to discipleship, the baptism in the name of Jesus Christ means both death and life." as i listened to voddie talk about his church, i felt 2 things - 1. a desire to be a part of a body of believers like he was describing, but at the same time, 2. a nervous feeling about what it would be like to be in a church body that actually required, expected some things of our family, and on top of that, actually held us accountable! scary, uncomfortable, risky, messy even...but at the same time, costly Christianity ~ certainly not cheap...

Monday, July 20, 2009

declare Your glory...

sun's not up yet
i sneek out the door
hoping to be the first one
to see the sun light up the shore

i walk the darkened pathway
that leads among the dunes
so different at this hour
my only light the moon

i step into the still warm sand
excitement fills my heart
i lay down my blanket
wait for darkness to depart

so now i only listen
as gentle waves lap the shore
tell You of Your glory
plead to know You more

time passes as pale pinkness
begins to tint the sky
shore birds begin to hop about
the time is drawing nigh

and then in full glory
light rises from the edge
it's almost too much for me
my eyes i have to hedge

colors burst in brilliance
yellow, blues & white
Your glory fills the heavens
no more signs of night

You do this every morning
declare Yourself for all to see
but this day ~ in this place
it's as if You did it for me!

*jb*


romans 1:20
for ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature. so they have no excuse for not knowing God.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

~please pause my play list and take a listen ~ i LOVE this!!!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

summer rain~


we were blessed with a little rain while in tennessee! such a treat after living in the desert a couple of years. i enjoyed so much hearing the rain there and then i heard it again here last night.. blessings!!!

winds rustle the trees
clouds gather above
gray light filters through
this, the kind of day i love

linger under my quilt
listen~distant thunder i hear
humidity changes to cool
scent of rain fills the air

sometimes coming in sheets
other times gentle drops fall
pitter patter on rooftops
puddles cover the walks

come rain of the summer
bring relief to the day
then warm again chases the coolness
and green and blue drown out the gray

*jb*

Monday, July 13, 2009

my ribbon of sand...


my ribbon of sand stretches before
my ribbon of sand stretches behind
and as i walk my simple way
special treasures i continue to find

along the seashore are many shells
precious ones stand out to me
pale blue or pink, white or creamy
places more ~ places fewer i see

each one that enters my collection
i remember where & when i found
& though i don't have them out everyday
to my heart each one is bound

when times come & one is before me
sweet memories flow as the sea
of when i found you on my ribbon
& you know you are precious to me...
*jb*


some of my laura ashley friends together for dinner last night!
each one of you are one of my seashells & you are precious to me!!!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

mid~summer season...

do you see mid~summer as a time of rest? i do ~ i am so grateful for a time to relax, enjoy family & friends, read purely for pleasure...a little season to be quiet, find time to be still, gather my thoughts ~ before real preparation for the coming year of work that He has given begins...



take my weariness out to sea
let Your rest wash over me

send refreshment in each breeze
sounds of gulls to soothe & ease

renew my mind with rhythm of waves
leaving behind former days

before a season of things made new
grateful for time to gaze at the blue

for quietness, peace & strength to build
time with You, my heart to yield

yes, take my weariness out to sea
ready for the next season with Thee


*jb*

eccl.3:1~there is a time for everything a season for every activity under heaven