Tuesday, September 28, 2010

hard conversations continued...

wow! i guess the Lord is going to open doors right away to these conversations! the first one started in the drive-thru at in-n-out :) we were talking about college and where some of the kids we love are going - in this case a big state university - and our son's "fascination" with this big school experience. the subject turned to examining what was drawing interest in that direction - then to what some of satan's "lures" might be for him...HONEST MOMENT :)... he thinks he's wanting to know if he can fit in with this young man he has looked up to for years...question? is this a person to follow? answer...not really b/c i think one of his lures might be the same as mine!...follow up...where do you see that lure active in your life today? what are you doing or will you do about it now to combat it in possibly a bigger way in the future?

conversation 2 - waking me up to say he's worried about the SAT/ACT. (he had just read a Puritan sermon for one of his classes that was about God's decrees and providence - PERFECT!) questions...are you praying about this yourself? what will you do when hard/scary things come up when you are more on your own? is God's being in control something you just read and write about or something you actually believe? what does it look like when you really believe this? are you willing to surrender to His plan, or will it be a battle?...silence - thinking, but able to go to sleep :)...follow up...are you having time with the Lord daily? are you praying regularly and learning to rest instead of worry? are you willing to go where He leads even if that looks different than you thought it would?

My part...to look for natural opportunities the Lord provides for these conversations. to pray for His words - not my own!!!

john calvin~ gratitude of mind for the favorable outcome of things, patience in adversity, and also incredible freedom from worry about the future all necessarily follow upon this knowledge (of God's providence)...ignorance of providence is the ultimate of all miseries; the highest blessedness lies in the knowledge of it.

james1:5~if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.

Monday, September 27, 2010

hard conversations...

a friend and i talked recently about our children's sanctification. it's time to have what i will call "some hard conversations". our son is a junior in high school -looking at colleges, thinking about the future - all exciting to him, a little scary to me :)

some of the questions... for me - do i love him enough to risk having these conversations? do i see a servant's heart? do i see gratefulness or a sense of entitlement? do i see fruit of the Spirit?...for him - why do you do the "right" things you do? what is your motivation? are you loving your neighbor? who is your neighbor? what responsibility to do have to others? your sister, friends, girls? what do you see as the "lures" of sin that satan might use on you? what do you believe about sin? and to whom do you feel accountable?
...the list goes on - LOTS of opportunity for growth and good, but hard conversations!

and after waking up in the middle of the night and making note of several questions...a poem...

i watch his chest move up and down
the breath of life within
i reach to stroke his fevered head
this little life begins

before i know it i unpeel
the little hands that cling
the nursery seems a major step
what will the future bring?

does he ever see my tears
or know my deep, deep love?
i must give him everyday
and trust my God above

i hope the t-ball soars so far
as he the bases rounds
that life is filled with lots of friends
and much new confidence found

choice to keep him home for school
equipping so many ways
my hopes and prayers i lift to God
each step along the way

then glasses,
and braces too
and now almost a man
was i but checking off a list
was i making the plan?

oh no! my Lord, much more than that
Your call for me as a mom
to pray and give him back each day
to You my loving God!


Saturday, September 25, 2010


there is a wave of darkness, Lord
that threatens from within
it wants to overtake me now
it whispers to give in

but You are always with me, Lord
still walking by my side
at other times You carry me
as i learn to abide

the world does not have time for this
nor care my thoughts to hear
and i must learn ~ You are enough
You wipe away my tears

for though i feel so oft' alone
i know You never leave
and in this quiet, empty place
i more and more believe

that You withhold the things You do
to teach me to depend
upon Your presence ~ You alone
and i must learn to bend

submit my will and my desires
and trust You have a plan
and find in my heart gratefulness
contentment in Your hand

for though i do not understand
~i'll not pretend i do~
You give me faith that's big enough
to know You will be true

so i will meet You everyday
sustained by You alone
and walk, though it be just with You,
as one who's deeply known


psalm 23

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Saturday, September 18, 2010

delicious weekend...

saw this friday afternoon with my sweet friend, Kim, who loves to cook too! loved it!!!!!

then tommy and i went to essence bakery for b'fast this am ....YUMMMM!!!!!

Monday, September 13, 2010


keep me, Lord, in step with You
though i am not a dancer
oh help me follow every move
and yield to Your sweet leading

i am amazed that You would choose
one lacking perfect rhythm
but trusting, i will take Your hand
surrendered ~ i Your maiden

for who am i to question You
the partner of Your choosing?
for You, Lord, take the simple things
and bring to Yourself glory

oh may we dance in loveliness
and bless each heart who passes
yet i will know deep in myself
it's only by Your leading


now may the God of peace, who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, equip you with everything good that you may do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.

Monday, September 6, 2010


i looked in the mirror
and what did i see?
i saw me
looking at me

and then You told me
to look once again,
and i saw me
exposed in my sin

but You didn't come
just to leave me exposed,
but healed and restored
deep in my soul

layer upon layer
oh peel them away
taking apart
the me that i've made

and answer the questions
that lurk within me
of just who i am
of just whom You see

open me, Jesus,
to Your healing ways
removing my blindness
and self-focused days

heal me of thinking
so much about me
of what others think
of who i should be

just let me be real
no need to pretend
a work still in progress
but loved to the end

and when, Lord, the healing
You started is done
now free to love others
than when You'd begun


mark 2:17
and when Jesus heard it, he said to them,"those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I came not to call the righteous,but sinners."

Thursday, September 2, 2010


Oswald Chambers ~ Holiness means
unsullied walking with the feet,
unsullied talking with the tongue,
unsullied thinking with the mind
~ every detail of the life
under the scrutiny of God.

oh, unsullied may i be
as i live this life 'fore Thee

feet that go where You would lead
meeting others in their need

words just pleasing, Lord, to You
bringing encouragement ~ hope that renews

and, Father, the challenge of an unsullied mind
thinking toward others, only thoughts that are kind

of these simple details, will You ever take hold
under Your scrutiny, continue to mold

and move me toward holiness, teach me to be
unsullied, Father, ever for Thee


Wednesday, September 1, 2010