Tuesday, November 15, 2011

trust...









this is a really special book a sweet friend gave to me. if you haven't read it yet ~ read it! it's all about knowing God & being grateful...the author ann voskamp says,"anything less than gratitude and trust is practical atheism...perhaps the opposite of faith is not doubt. perhaps the opposite of faith is fear. to lack faith perhaps isn't as much an intellectual disbelief in the existence of God as fear and distrust that there is a good God...the fear is suffocating, terrorizing, and i want a remedy, and it is trust. trust is everything."


do i know the true God
the one Your Word reveals?
or have i made an image
that holds for me appeal?

so many want a god
who only comfort brings
who gives just ease and goodness
allows no suffering

His Word says i'll have trouble
my view of suffering
should count it as a priviledge
to struggle for my King

should my first thought be always
how to be removed
from the place of trial
do i His Word confuse?

instead, should i embrace it
when trouble comes my way
and ask what may be learned
while difficulty stays?

then maybe His work finished
i more to Him will turn
and thank Him for the suffering
now His ways more i've learned


jb~sdg

Sunday, November 13, 2011

simple desire...










my heart's desire is simple
i want to be like You
to act and to react, Lord
as You would have me do

my mornings start so sweetly
so quiet and so still
but as the sun arises
my mind begins to reel

i take the kids off this way
i get the laundry done
but who knows what's for supper?
what homework's yet begun?

the busyness engulfs me
at times my focus shifts
i see myself get moody
see tiredness take a grip

i long to hear Your voice
be grounded in Your words
that in the midst of daily
Your Spirit reassures

that though i walk imperfect
Your grace will make a way
and through my interactions
each one will come to say

"well, she just needs her Savior
and guess what? so do i!"
and grace will be extended
as busy days go by

then end of day approaches
i look back and review
were my words filled with sweetness?
did i, Lord, look like You?

now time spent in confession
i see the truth of me
may my heart, Lord, continue
in hope to be like Thee!



jb~sdg





Thursday, June 2, 2011

You see me...









You see me every moment
i am not alone
when i feel so weary
You make Your presence known

sometimes i get discouraged
thinking all's for naught
this, though, not what You tell me
not what Your word has taught

lo, I am with you always
I will never leave
I will send you comfort
I'll meet every need

cast all your cares upon Me
I have gentle ways
You see and know my moments
You number my days

so when my heart is hurting
and worry weighs me down
i turn to You, my Father
thankful for the sound

of Your gentle voice within me
reminding every day
i'm loved and You go with me
Your joy makes me say

thank You for all You're teaching
for grace that each day's new
in the middle of my tiredness
please make me more like You


*jb~sdg
matthew 11:28-30
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

ask...








turn me not away, my Father
as i make, Lord, my requests
let me come to You in sureness
You will not withhold Your best

as a child comes to her mother
asking for a piece of bread
let me come to You, my Father,
confident and without dread.

You have told us we may ask You,
as Your children, for our needs.
You will not turn and not hear us
but gladly answer as we plead.

lost souls, Father, wandering Christians,
hopeless people, a hurting world,
our own children, our own families,
You have told us in Your word,

to make requests known to You, Father
that You care about them all.
so in faith and because You promised
hear me, Father, as i call...

*jb~sdg



Luke 11:11&13
What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent. If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!"

1 John 3:21-22
Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God; and whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep his commandments and do what pleases Him.

Galatians 4:6
And because you are sons, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, crying, "Abba! Father!"

Saturday, May 28, 2011

I AM with you...

japan tsunami


mississippi river flooding


tuscaloosa, alabama



joplin, missouri






how does the heart survive
apart from the One it knows?
suffering,pain and destruction
lost hearts on every shore

are there words,oh my Father
that might spread Your hope abroad?
may i ,oh God, be a tool
You'd use to share Your love?

yet lately i sit in silence
pencil ready in hand
and all i hear is more silence
my heart beginning to starve

a friend asks why i'm not writing
i wonder along with her
examine my heart for a reason
daily seeking Your word

then pleading, i ask for the floodgates
of Your love to be opened wide
speak to me oh my Father
this silence,to me,long enough!

and gently,a soft word is spoken:
a heart, it cannot survive ~
apart from the One who made it
suffering calls to people "abide"

focus not on this world,its beauty
possessions that you gain
but minister to those who are hurting
meeting them here in their pain

tell them the winds and the weather
the earth and even the tides
I use it all for My purpose
calling hearts "come to Me and abide"

My people go and love others
pointing the way back to Me
the lost see My people suffer
I use this that they may see

that truly a heart cannot live
apart from My infinite grace
this is the message you must share:
hurting hearts, I AM in this place!

Exodus 2:24~25
"and God heard their groaning and God remembered His covenant with Abraham, with Isaac and with Jacob. God saw the people...and God knew."

Matthew 28:20b
"...and lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world." ~ Jesus


*jb~sdg

Monday, February 14, 2011

quiet...











oh Lord, help me to be quiet
and oh so very still.
for You, Father, may be speaking
but my mind tries to reel.
calm every impulse stirring
all the thoughts within.
let me not miss Your Spirit's
promptings they begin.
the world whirls in busy chaos,
choices everywhere.
i, Lord, must slow on purpose~
constantly in prayer.
how can i sense Your leading
follow, Lord, Your plan?
lest i be still and quiet,
each day take Your hand.

Monday, January 24, 2011

seeking wisdom...










how will You ever give wisdom?
how will You, Lord, hear my prayer?
how will i know what's Your answer?
how will i know that You care?

Father, the way is so foggy!
Father, I don't understand!
Father, You've promised me wisdom!
yet confusion remains - sinking sand!

peace is my deepest desire
peace that abides in my heart
but there is no peace at this moment
i feel all alone - in the dark

tears fill my eyes and they flood down
who loves this one more than You?!
i desire only protection
You want to make something new

how do i know what You want, Lord?
how can i ever be sure?
if i'm headed the wrong direction
turn me or stop my path short!

for i want the best for my loved ones
and surely Your plans You'll reveal
i'm seeking, i'm waiting, i'm trusting
alone, Lord, quiet and still


*jb~sdg

I know my children still have character to be developed - I know they have lessons to be learned - I pray I will not so protect them that I delay the learning of lessons that will be their blessing to learn! I pray I will step out of the way at the right times and that I will step in when that is best. I pray I will not be afraid to require something hard of them when it's for their good and, I pray, for His glory!

Monday, January 3, 2011

truth & perception...


well, i guess the Lord is going to start His work on me right away!! yesterday, we were (sadly) taking down our Christmas decorations and tommy announced that we were changing storage containers. we've used the same red and green containers for FOREVER! ok - i know it's silly when extended to something like storage containers, but i am the QUEEN OF SENTIMENTALITY AND TRADITION! (are you picturing images of Tevia in Fiddler on the Roof? ~ yep, that's me :)) anyway, i am married to Mr. Organization/ Always-Looking-to-get-Rid-of-Something-and-Improve-Efficiency :) ~ as you can imagine, this occasionally leads to conflict ~ and i had just asked the Lord to show me my sinful ways and make clear where i needed change!

just a day later, i have much more clarity about this whole incident! tommy really wasn't trying to hurt my feelings! the old containers truly were wilting in the heat of a desert storage unit and the fact that the new containers were clear and black was not meant as a personal affront to me. so, this morning the Lord laid on my heart that there is a difference between perception and truth and that i, as His child, am to look for TRUTH and begin more and more to assume the best before opening my mouth...



perception ~how i see it~
often leads astray
for i know not the thoughts of others
You've placed in my way

truth ~the way it really is~
what i must seek to know
assuming best, extending grace
and hoping this will show

that i am but a sinner
needing grace that so abounds
that when my words and actions
tempt others to resound

"she is so impatient!"
"she's so set in her ways!"
"she has such an opinion!"
"she makes lists everyday!"

that in that grace they'd see me
step back and love me still
and say with all that's in them
"i know that she means well!"

then may i do the same, Lord
i hope others do for me!
assume the best of another
have eyes that clearly see

the difference 'tween truth and perception
that most hearts seek what's good
for others You've placed in our lives, Lord
choosing Your way as we should!


*jb~sdg

a new year...











i sat jan 1, having just returned from tennessee/mississippi with loved ones, thinking about this new year. i love jan 1 ~ it's the day i choose what devotional book(s) i'll use through the year. i love to sit and think about how the Lord has been working in my life and may work in my life in the year to come. i just finished My Utmost for His Highest (wonderful!) and the year before Streams in the Desert (amazing!). this year, i think 2 books ~ Devotions on Prayer from andrew murray's wrtings and nancy guthrie's Discovering Jesus in the Old Testament. (as a side note, i also started Walking on Water~Reflections on Faith and Art by madeleine l'engle ~ one of my favorite writers!). so, we will see where the new year leads ~ kids growing up so fast, a new camera for Christmas :) big decisions to be made, and much hope and anticipation for what the Lord has for me and those i love in 2011. Happy New Year blessings!!!


a new year, Father, we begin
our hopes all set in You
many changes we will face
but You will see us through

world not for a moment still
and neither, Lord, are we
yet help us seek Your way of peace
that Your plans we may see

help us slow our pace, oh God,
and daily seek to know
not just what Your plans may be
or which way we should go

but oh much deeper, Father God,
may we seek more of You
to say at year's end from this day
"i know You more than i knew!"

that we would grow in ways that now
we cannot comprehend
that as we walk, Lord, this year through
our lives You'd shape and bend

and as we sit a year from now
reflecting on this time
that we would say with most glad hearts
"He's evermore ~ more mine!"


*jb~sdg